What To Live Without

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Parts 11
Time 1h 14m

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Phil can't help it. It's been seven years, and he's just reached one million subscribers. Why does Dan get so much more love than him? What makes Dan special? 
When he starts to see it, he doesn't want to.All Rights Reserved

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DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

Disappearing Act// Phan [Complete] by itsebonyrose

Phil is lost and blinded by his tears. Can he find his way? Or will he be another disappearing act? * Trigger Warning* [Completed]

Messages (Phan fiction) by interruptedbyfire

Phil starts getting cute, little messages from a secret admirer and gradually feels himself falling more and more in love with the boy. But can you really like someone you've never seen before? And what will happen when Phil finds out the real identity of his admirer?

bruised knuckles - a phanfic by awoohowell

Daniel James Howell. The tough, sarcastic bad boy. A lot of people fear him, others envy him, some even admire him. Philip Michael Lester isn't one of those people. He hates, well maybe not hates, Dan and Dan knows exactly why.

I've read a bunch of phan, so why not write one? Dan Howell's life couldn't be any better at the moment. He has met the most beautiful, charming, kind girl he could ever imagine, and she loves him back. Everything is perfect... but not for Phil. Phil Lester has always been in love with Dan since the first moment he first met him, but now Phil's heart is crushed. He has some suspicions of Dan's girlfriend, but Dan just brushes it off, ignoring Phil completely. Unfortunately, Phil's bad feelings may be true... Sexual content, self harm, language, and domestic abuse warning. Also, I'm American, so if I get anything wrong, please tell me. ••• Update: This is very old (not really that old) writing! It's cringy as hell, and I apologize in advance. I have fixed a few errors, so if it seems slightly different than it was before, that's why.

Our Missing Piece | Phanfic by XxKitty_ScreamzzzxX

We all know Dan Howell and Phil Lester are madly in love. But as happy as they are something is simply missing. Are you there missing piece?

Phan-Say Something {Complete} by PiperPoole

{Complete} Dan Howell knows he has feelings for his Best Friend Phil Lester, and he has known for a while. But Dan can't ever find the way to tell his sweet friend how he feels. However, when Dan finds the right time and tells him, things go worse than he thought.

Nothing Lasts Forever (Phan) by screamingwentz

Now in London, Dan and Phil are bigger than ever. They have their own radio show, millions of subscribers and get asked to playlist live, vid con along with other events. The only thing they don't have, is everything a normal 20-30 year old is starting to get. A stable relationship, a house, a car, a family... Not to mention the pressure from the fandom about 'Phan' is coming to a boil, things are falling apart at home for Phil, and Dan is struggling to cope with a sudden revelation he uncovered in the midst of an existential crisis. Forever only lasts, in never.

Invisible Magic {Phanfic} by EllieFullOfLove

Love is like magic, but it's invisible. Even for Daniel Howell and Philip Lester only the rest of the world can see it but they can't. You can say that they are blinded by phan, or love blinded that only their viewer and followers can see. But one tragic accident can change it all... I do not own Dan and Phil they are real people on the internet for those who do not know.

If I Knew Then (Phan) by ToriDreamsOfTomorrow

**Trigger Warning: Self Harm, Abuse, Alcoholism** Dan Howell and Phil Lester never got along. Mostly because Dan took out his horrid home life on the people at school and Phil happened to be an easy target. But when things take a turn for the worse in both of their lives, they're forced to get to know each other better and discover things about themselves they never guessed.

Smile, Dan

DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

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