Me after You
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  • Reads 1,971
  • Votes 78
  • Parts 44
  • Time 51m
Ongoing, First published Mar 30, 2016
I don't know who I'm writing this to. It could be to the future me or Logan or anyone, but I know that if I don't write, one of these nights all my feelings will hit me like a brick wall and I might not recover. So here is how I was doing future Anarchy or how I am doing Logan. Here is what it was like being me after you.
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Welcome To My Deep 3AM Thoughts

68 parts Complete Mature

Dive deep into my thoughts with me. A break up pushed me over the edge and it's time for a change. These are all of my late night thoughts, fears, and emotions. It gets real and raw and its not for the faint of heart. I hope this helps whoever it reaches. Remember to always take what resonates and leave the rest for others.