T.M.C.

What have you gone threw to understand the pain I go threw is all what people I helped asked me. Now I shall say the answer. I was basically never had a "normal" family shall i say. My mother isn't the most responsible person, she forgets about things and rather run threw life thinking she can get threw it as fast as she can and accomplish every thing she goes threw. And forgets sometimes she has responsibilities like notice her children. But keeps forgetting that. Also my so called spermdonar (aka real father) tried killing my mother. But she went to him and had the oldest and youngest son and that makes no since to me because who the fuck does that. Also my second brother tried killing me over multiple times so I was classically a helpless being that couldn't defend for himself at that time. Yeah a little fucked up isn't. My sister is the only person i actually trust because she helped me unlike my oldest brother which a dead beat drunk all the time and irresponsible as well, he thinks everyone hates him but i don't i just can't look up to him as a big brother. Also my step dad that took care of me for almost my entire life is a druggy that says things and doesn't fulfill his promises like mother but she doesn't do drugs. Ugh I can't stand it. This is only the small things that happened. SO if YoU EveR FUCKING TELL ME "OH YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FUCKING FEEL" WELL THEN FUCK YOU I WAS TRYING TO HELP YOU AND KEEP YOU FROM HOW I FEEL.