MY GUILT STOPS ME !

Alone in my head
I'm feeling so low
You wont understand !
No one can know !
My eyes are so tired
I can't sleep at nights
Your face haunts my dreams.
When I turn out the lights.
It happened so suddenly ,
It happened so fast,
I knew all at once
That none of this would last !
Did your feelings ever matter to me this thought always comes to your mind .
I held my head high
As I walked by your side,
Tears welling up,
I was dying inside !
Weeks have passed,
keeping secrets, telling lies,
I don't have strength,
To look either of them in the eyes !
You're heart has been broken
NOT ONCE! BUT TWICE !
I respect your categorical love
And love you sweet!
But I'm bound by ...
My mistakes ....
My guilt !
Apologizes are not more than enough.
Yeah! I'm rueful for that every promise ...trust I've broken
I'm rueful for that every tear which came straight from your heart !
And ....
I left you befuddled !
My mind ..my heart is still repenting for all those wrong decision I knowingly took!
Deep down inside
I know its my fault .
So I'm just going to lock it .
Away in a way vault
When I'm lying in bed
Still all alone ...
Inside of my head ...
You are still THERE !!!