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Mirror Mirror Can't You See, What You Show Is Killing Me

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Two years ago, Caia lost everything and everyone she loved. Now every day is a struggle; she's lost the ability to eat, and not care. Counting calories, and days since the tragedy, Caia's not sure she  wants to live anymore. The only one who can convince her not to go is Ky, her best friend and boyfriend since what happened. Can he make her believe life's worth living before it's too late? 
  
  TRIGGER WARNING: this book deals with the topics of anorexia, suicide, and depression. If reading this would be harmful to you, please do not. If any of my readers deal with these issues, feel free to message me.
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
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