Some are addicted to a game, some are addicted to drugs, others, like Ivy Moretz, are addicted to pain. Ivy cannot live without the pain she receives full-force on an almost daily basis. Pain is her odd, and sometimes frightening, substitution for drugs and alcohol others use to disappear their problems. But, when Ivy is transferred to a 'stereotypical' high school, she is convinced that her life at the new high school will be agonizing hell. When Jake Roberts, a sweet, gorgeous guy Ivy meets, Ivy starts to slowly, day-by-day, loose her need of pain.
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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