The voice within me

I am sitting here wondering why life lets you down in so many ways. having a beautiful soul can cost you so much. I give more than I take or want, to see someone else having a wonderful day is enough to make me smile. yet lately things have become dark for me. so many people have left me by choice or taken. its a lot to handle to understand . I have always tried to be there keep strong for those around me yet I fade daily my heart grows weak and my mind becomes enemies with in it's self. The voices are to much