Insecure |Phan|
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Dan Howell was just an insecure 17 year old, hating each and every aspect of himself. After all, his entire life, he grew up with a father who blamed and hated him because of the accident that caused Dan's mother's death when Dan was only 10 years old. At school, he wasn't exactly the most popular kid, and regularly puts up with bullies and their beatings. And the one friend Dan ever made in high school left him when Dan built up the courage to come out of the closet to him.
It wasn't exactly easy for a boy like Dan to put his trust in anyone.... until a beautiful boy with blue eyes and black hair named Phil enrolls in Dan's school and takes the time to get to know Dan, showing them both what an amazing thing called "love" can do to someone's life...
Triggers//: Self-harm, Suicidal thoughts/attempts, depression, bullying (verbal and physical), and verbal abuse
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