guardian | phan
spaceplantjulia
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  • Parts 13
  • Time 53m
spaceplantjulia
Ongoing, First published Apr 03, 2016
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I'm ready. 

I let go my hands of the railing and fall forward.

I'm ready to die.

Someone is holding me back. 


TRIGGER WARNINGS: DEPRESSION, ANXIETY, SUICIDE, ABUSE, SLURS, ALCOHOL, SMOKING, SEXUAL HUMILIATION
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