Forgotten rejection

I never imagined i would end up in this situation. A few months back i told myself i would forget about him,, about his rejection, about his scent... But no, i'm here, looking at his eyes, my mate's beautiful eyes, forgetting everything that happened before, wishing everything was like this since the very first time i saw him, wishing he would've kissed me like this before, and blaming myself for being so weak.. for forgiving him.