Anxiety
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Ongoing6m
Last published Tue, Apr 19, 2016
This story is very realistic for me and many others who suffer from diagnosed social anxiety. It is written with a purposeful disregard for grammar to symbolize the racing thoughts in our minds. For those who are wondering, I am most definitely not as popular as Arabella is, but her anxiety and her hair are both based off of me. Otherwise I am nothing like her.
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Arabella D'Angelo is just a shell of a girl, a mere presence floating through the halls of her Los Angeles home. Her once bright grey eyes and sunshine-like spirit was crushed by the weight of her abusive parents. Living in a constant state of fear and despair, the sixteen year old girl endured the endless cycle of violence and cruelty that had plagued her everyday. She had learned to keep her head down, her voice silent and her pain buried deep within her fragile heart. Quiet and reserved were the only terms that could describe her closed-off persona. But then, in a cruel yet fortunate twist of fate, a tragedy struck. Arabella's parents were killed in a mysterious but deadly car crash, the wreckage leaving behind nothing but burnt ashes. Their abrupt deaths opened the doors to a new chapter in Arabella's eventful life, as her custody was now handed over to her elder brother, Damon D'Angelo. While Damon had everything a man could ever wish for, he didn't have that one thing, or person in this case, that he longed for everyday. His baby sister, whom he would kill or get killed for, no hesitation whatsoever. Him and his brothers were never this happier when they heard about their sister's arrival in their abode. Finally, things are looking up for them. The question is, for how long? Join the journey of the D'Angelo siblings, who go through hell and back, facing every single challenge thrown at their face and overcoming it with everyone by their sides. After all, it is the D'Angelo blood they got running through veins.
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