Will you be the one to stay?

Everyone I cared about left me. My dad died when I was 3. He left me. If you about to say how he killed himself. At least that's what I was told. My own mother left me. She handed me a knife and said lets go meet your father. She cut her trough right I front of me. There was blood every were. It was on my hair on my close ,my faces, even on my dog maxwell. My dog left me too. He ran away after my mother killed herself. I will never be loved I will always lose the people I care about. My aunt left me. She said she dose not want me around buecuz I cause bad luck. I live alone. I cut. I won't lie I tried to kill myself. I didn't work, someone found me before I died. Oh well there's always next time. I don't smile so no one talks to me. At leat for now. But what happens when my mate comes and by the way can you tell me what a mate is?