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Always Trying

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I always try 
and I try some more
 I end up sighing and on the floor
 I deserve the comfort of laying in bed because my heart is always hurting there's always pain in my head
 over thinking is my special trait 
getting worse after every debate
 what should I do 
what should I say
 slowly feeling like I'm slipping away 
why am I the only one trying 
why am I the only one crying
 you say the things you say 
but in reality your just lying
 if you truly cared
 why aren't you still here
 if you truly cared for me
 why
 didn't you ever make me lose my fear 
I was scared of losing you 
but I was never scared of losing myself
 now I feel like my story finished
 being written
 time to put it on the shelve with the rest of my thoughts I keep locked upAll Rights Reserved

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