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Hey my name is ....let's pick a name hmmm Sarah yeah. Hi my name is Sarah I'm 15 years old and I'm doing GCSE ... i live in the UK. I also have trichotillamania an ICD in which I pull out my own hair. I pull out my eyelashes.  Anyway as for me the going has been tough I thought I'd write entries and just see what happens. To be honest I can't even promise they'll make sense or have proper grammer etc. but I hope this at least shows you that what ever problem you have 
you are not alone.
I'd like this to hopefully be the start of a platform in which we can communicate more about our difficulties. I have made this under an anonymous user....Do the same and let out your problem. I'll respond. 
Hope you like whatever this is. 

"Sarah"
xoxAll Rights Reserved

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I was only 7 when I met her, but we had an instant connection. We were inseperable. She was always happy and joyful around me, but me on the other hand, I was a completely different story. I suffered a disorder that caused me to have no emotions. I told her my condition and she understood, but one day she dissapeared, I didn't feel sad, worried or angry like I should have. I just continued my day like any other day, but by myself. I continued to have no friends as I got older and talked to no one, but it didn't bother me. I soon became the "weirdo" as most people would say. I became known as the girl with no emotions.

My Poetry Escape by Someone_Invisible15

I may just be a girl. No one special. Nothing compared to others. In the eyes of the universe, I am just a little speck of dust. My light may not shine very bright, and it may not be of any use, but I am me. Writing is my only escape out of this world. I cry rivers of ink and climb mountains of words. I may not write as well as others, but my writing is just a different style. They're my feelings. I really do hope you can connect to some of the work in here. Please, do not copy any of this work without informing me first. Thank you! "My Escape" I have a supply, In the closet near my bed, Of past memories, Hanging by a thread. A thread, Connected to my mind, That thread, Just follows me around. I have a hole, In the middle of my heart, That hole fills up, When someone's torn apart. I have a tear, Accompanying my lonely eye, Knowing, whenever I'm alone, I can sit in a corner and cry. Even though, These things are there, I still have ink, a notebook, and a pen, To care. I write and write, To my heart's desire, New feelings erupt, By the hour. Writing is, My one escape, In this cruel and careless world, I have the power, to awake. "A Story Without Words" A story told, In a little tune, A golden smile, And a shining tear, Rolling down my cheek. A little breeze, The nice sun, A marvelous day, Turned into a wet one. The memories dripped, Down on my cotton white shirt, Leaving stains, On my malicious heart. Your smile, Worth a thousand words, Can't cheer up This depressive mind. A storm bewildered, Your indecisive mind, Drowning me, In my reckless thoughts. A rainy day, A gleaming lie, A story not told, With words Nor sounds. This story is, But a mere thought, In this universe We share, Every night. This story is, A withering storm, Drifting off, In this careless soul. This story is, Not told with sounds, But a never ending blow, Of swirling emotions, Bottled up inside.

A Touch of Scarlet by SimoneRutherford

We're brought into this world to live; eat, learn, sleep, repeat, repeat, and repeat again. Until eventually the time comes when we die. Or at least that's how it's supposed to work right? For some reason I don't think it's working out that way for me. • • • "Thick eyelashes frame deep blue eyes, freckles sprinkle across his pale cheekbones. His thick, tousled-white hair falls messily over part of his right eye. A blush starts to creep into my cheeks the longer I stare but I can't look away-- his features are so unflawed that they seem to resemble some sort of marble-like stone. It's almost as if he's not human at all." • • • Lydia Ames's second last year in high school starts off with an accident where she looses the only family member she has left. As if that's not the worst part already, she also has a permanent reminder of the day's events. However when she meets a certain boy and his friends her whole world changes completely. The question is did it change for the better? Or will it end in the loss of everything and everyone she has left? *This version of A Touch of Scarlet is a first draft = grammar is painfully incorrect* #1 in Vampire: September-November 2015

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The Smile She Gives You by Juliaaa_k

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Catastrophically Carla (Lesbian Story) by xpaaulettex

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My Journey Through Self Love by MiaDFord

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Life SUCKS. by Chichidera

"Treasure what're you doing awake by this time". I heard my mum voice trailing behind. I shivered,I knew perfectly the rules of not being awake by this time. I would only get scolded at and maybe my phone seized. But it's not really my fault for wanting a distraction from my messy life. I just couldn't take it anymore,I was tired of thinking of my life I was tired of blaming God for the circumstances before me. Sometimes I feel like a burden and sometimes I wished I was never born. Life is cruel and learning from you mistakes doesn't count anymore. I have been told about how things would be fine by my mates. Encouraging words to keep me going, but it's simply not working. I would have committed suicide but I don't want to put my mum through that pain. She is my most favorite person in the universe. "Tress I'm talking to you. What are you doing awake?" I could feel my mum presence right behind me and dare not move. "Mum I just woke up and was just scrolling through Facebook sorry". I said after waking up from my trance. "You know the rules,no phones at night. Don't make me believe you have a boyfriend. Goodnight and put off that phone. Mum loves you. Goodnight Tress". "Goodnight Mum,sorry for breaking the rules. It won't happen again. I love you too". I smiled at her and watched her leave. I was actually texting my boyfriend.. Thank goodness he didn't call tho. That was really close, didn't want my mum to worry about me....

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