ENVY
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Last published Wed, May 24, 2017
"We're so jealous of you!" They say that whenever you're around me.
"Envy doesn't necessarily have to be negative you know. You're the good kind of envy." He gave me a goofy grin
I started to think differently about you.
But I'm so afraid of this whole thing! The feeling I get whenever you're around! The stupid satisfaction I feel when you laugh and smile at me, the feeling of emptiness when you're not beside me.
You confuse me so much that I just want to rip my hair out! My life turned to a fucking circus when you took the fucking wheel.
My brain is practically yelling, 'Stay away!' But my heart is unfortunately on the oppositions side, it's stupidly telling me that some trouble is what I need, that maybe Danger can be good too.
A story by Avrilania555
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