I am who I am

I walk the streets of my neighborhood everyday just to take out the trash. And every other weekend I would wonder, no I would realize Im pretending..... lying to myself to not only my parents, my friends , and the strangers on the street but to myself. Every God damn day kids in school look at me as if Im nothing. Its like I dont matter?! people say horrible things to me. even my Father says things parents shouldnt say about thier kids." your brother is a good kid he's just ugghhhh ...people like him dont belong with people like us". I walked in that room and I said nothing! They both just staired at me while I staired back. They looked at me just like your looking at me right now! As if you understand my pain and suffering! As if you know me! But you dont! Nobody knows me! Im gay, thats what i do know. I am who I am and nothings gonna change that.