How I changed my personality

Hi guys. Today in this story,I will be telling you how my life changed. Here we go...

I was a nice kid back then. Never tell lies,never bully,calm,and helpful. But something changed my whole personality...

My brother suggest me to watch Youtube since his friend recommend him. I asked him why,but he just said just do it.
So then I went onto Youtube and watch some videos. The first Youtuber I watched was PewDiePie. He was so funny so I kept watching him.
After that,I watched some other Youtubers:(to name a few) JackSepticEye,Markiplier,TheDiamondMinecart,and more(they seem to be popular)
So then I subscribed to him and kept watching the videos they post. The one that changed me the most is JackSepticeye(imma call him Jack). I will tell you why.
So,Jack curses a lot and yells a lot. I have this weird habit to relate my personalities to that person that I like. So then I kept on cursing and yelling and all that. My mom told me,"What happened to you? How come you are not like the other(my name)I know?"
"What there is nothing wrong with me you dumb***."
My mom was shocked at what I said. My brother doesn't even like me anymore. Right now,after watching some anime with lots of violence,I started to think about killing,suicide,and murdering.
"I hate my life. I want to go to hell."I whispered to myself.
Now,I really like anime,killing(which i never done before),cursing(which I still do now),and other things. I am not nice anymore. I tell lies. I was never like the other (my name). What do I do now? What am I going to do? How can I change this? Why am I like this? Who is going to like me? Where am I going to get help? When am I going to stop? These are the questions I am asking myself all the time.

This is the end! Hope you enjoy it. Sorry about that curse. Derp. Oh ya I have spirit pets now :D. One is named Shadow and one is named Ray. bruh. Ok bye.