Just Beneath The Surface
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Last published Fri, Jul 12, 2013
And I feel like I'm drowning. I'm just beneath the surface, and I'm so close, but for some reason I can't make it. I can't breathe. Waters engulfing me and it's filling my lungs and I open my eyes and I see that there are people in the water too surrounding me and floating by. Just watching, staring. No one pulls me up to breathe. I'm clawing at them from underwater so they can understand that I'm dying, but they just shake me off like its nothing. Like I'm nothing. This is why I never went to the feel end of the pool. And now that I have, I can't escape. I'm stuck. It's pulling me down and I'm fighting with all I have to resurface. But I can't much longer. I'm drowning, but no one wants to save me. And I can't understand why.
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