marisnotonfire (Dan Howell fanfic) (ON HOLD)
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Last published Sat, Apr 23, 2016
Mar Morris is a 23-year old New Jersey girl, who just moved to London in England. She is a vlogger on YouTube with 53,297 subscribers.
Growing up, Mar was bullied by everyone and had no friends. Her family was poor, even though she was an overweight child.
Mar also has to suffer with Crohn's disease, epilepsy, autism, and nighttime eating syndrome. She's had these diseases since birth, and only struggles a bit to control them.
For Crohn's disease, she sometimes is extremely hungry, and then she not hungry at all.
For epilepsy, she has suicidal thoughts and random anger attacks, and is depressed and anxious a lot.
For autism, she doesn't respond to new people when they say hi, and it takes her a few seconds to say hi back.
And for nighttime eating syndrome, she sleep-eats (eating in her sleep), and has big snacks.
Mar's idol is Dan Howell (danisnotonfire), and they procrastinate a lot, even though Dan doesn't know that Mar exists.
After a tour of the London Eye, one of her dreams come true.
What will happen next?
Find out, in Marisnotonfire!
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