Why, God?

"God leads His dear Children along,
Some through the waters,
Some through the flood;
Some through the fire,
But all through the blood.
Some through great sorrows, (wait, what? can a good Lord do this?)
But God gives a song,
In the night season and all the day long...

As a turning 25 year old girl, I am so weak with all the peculiarities, pain and hypocrisy of my Christian life. I don't actually know what will happen with me with this kind of writing. I am afraid of errors and bad feedback so please be kind to my heart. If ever you are reading this, please feel free to comment. Thanks.