My Broken Innocence

To read all of my old poetry
to read about all the pain
makes me realise that after 3 years
it still hasn't waned

And so I write
hoping that it will lessen
my demons at night
I'm so tired of everything

I write, hoping that it will do me good
and maybe one day
that it could
help me know the words to explain

I write, Because of a promise I've made
And even though I've stopped
the scars won't fade
I'm sorry I'm so fucked up

Will I get better?
I don't know, but I write because
I don't want my last words to be
in a suicide letter