no matter how hard i try, i cant seem to be good enough for them. my friends say that they love me, and that they enjoy my company, but i know better. my boyfriend says that im perfect, that im all he needs, and that i was sent to him from heaven, but i know better. my parents say they love me, and that they couldn't have asked for a better daughter, but i know better.
my "friends" talk trash about me behind my back... my "boyfriend" cheats on my everyday with the girl next door... my "parents" arent my real ones...
i get called a slut everyday for having a son, whos two, by the way, im a senior struggling to get through school. if you told me i wouldve gotten knocked up my freshman year of high school, i wouldve told you that you were crazy. i had never drank, smoked or had a single thought about sex until i moved to brookeside right after eight grade year ended.
i guess this is where i tell you where everything goes wrong, right?
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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