Unexpected

Did you ever feel like the world is against you? Did you ever feel like no one understands you? Did you ever feel like you don't deserve to live this horrible life? Did you ever feel like you did your best to make them proud but all they see is your flaws? Did you ever like it got to the point where you trying to kill your own, then suddenly some band on the internet saved you in some point, they make you smile by their songs or the lyrics in their songs, every heartbreak is sealed everytime you hear them? Have you ever felt that no matter how long or how much time you spent flooding them, you're just a fan? Do you know how much it hurts knowing that the bands that saved your life, doesn't know your name, face, house or you? You wanna thank them for saving your life, making you smile and showing you that someone loves you but they're so many miles away from you, it's hard to come near them or even just approach them because of their security, it really hurts. Have you ever felt that the only reason why you're not dealing with everybody's shits is that their songs tell you to be strong, that you're beautiful in and out, that you're loved and you're not alone in your battle? Like in every 5SOS songs tell you that it's okay to break the rules because "we're the kings and the queens of the new broken scene" or in every One Direction songs tell you that " you've got that one thing" or in every The Vamps songs tell you that "you've got a wild heart".......Well.... That's my life...... my multi-fandom fangirl life. I'm just an average girl from the Philippines who has a four annoying older brothers, until I moved in with them in California and there's a lot of surprises .....