dysphoria;
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dysphoria;
a state of unease or generalized dissatisfaction with life.
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"NOTHING!" I screamed tearing down the last bit of pictures, thumb tacks and pins were cutting my hands but I felt nothing. I glanced around my room looking for other things I could take my agony out on. My knees grew weak and I fell on the photos littering my floor, and I just laid there. the pain moving through my whole body as if it were my blood. I closed my eyes just letting the feeling consume me, and at some point my tired eyes closed.
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