What if i am not normal? (Phan, kickthestickz)
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Philip Lester has just moved to a small city in England as he almost killed his older brother for been gay. He has always hated homosexuals he hates the idea of it but what if someone changed his mind? Daniel Howell a homosexual living in a city gets beaten up every day for been gay, he doesn't have parents well not anymore, what if he wasn't just a normal boy what is he was something else. i have no idea where im going with this haha but enjoy
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