Breathe - A Dan Howell Fanfic
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Last published Sun, Sep 1, 2013
At first glance, Beth may seem like your average young adult. She's bubbly, funny and a well-rounded introvert. She earned perfect grades in school and with is passionate for ballet, punk music and food, as an aspiring chef. She moved to London from Ireland when she turned 18 to try escape her problems and ever since, everything has been running smoothly. Plus, she has the perfect boyfriend, Dan, a popular Youtuber and radio host. One would think she didn't have a care in the world. But, with a troubled past, a giant secret and the pressure and stress building on, how long can she fare before her life begins to crumble once again?
TRIGGER WARNING: Eating Disorder
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