Dear Dan... // Phan
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Last published Mon, Jul 11, 2016
Why do you feel the need to physically and mentally hurt me until everything goes fuzzy? Why do you feel the need to give me disorders I would have never have produced without you? Why must you bully me for liking the opposite gender?
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