I don't want to die...... But I want to end my suffering..... I want to run away...... But where should I go..... I need someone........... But there's no one who understands me.... I wanted to end it so badly....... I wanted to cut my self..... I wanted to drink that bleach I brought a month ago..... I wanted to stab myself with a knife..... I wanted to smash a bottle in my head...... I wanted to hang myself on my room.... But...... I'm scared..... I'm scared to realize that I still can change my life and start a new chapter.... I'm scared that maybe one day I'll regret everything..... I'm scared to make my friends tear..... I'm scared to see my own body lying breathless and lifeless in the morgue..... I'm scared to see my own name carved in a gravestone..... I'm scared to hear the cries of my mommy...... And I'm scared to know that I'm dead.....