Weight on my shoulders
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Ongoing14m
Last published Sat, Jun 11, 2016
Life never gets easier, if anything it gets harder. It was the year of 2012; I had to move from the only friends I've ever had, the only friends I remember the only friends I knew. My whole life is changing. There is nothing I can do to stop it; I have no idea what's going to happen. I've never been bullied; I have never fell in love. I know I was only 10 but still you have to have a life when you're young. You have to make the best of what's happened. I'm 14 now and if I could go back. I would change a lot because what's about to happen I never thought would ever happen to me in the history of the world. What has happened has changed my life, changed my point of view in the world. I will never be the same. I'm not making a story about my life I'm telling you what I have been through!!! I'm telling you who broke my heart and what I did wrong so you don't make the same mistakes I did.
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