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You don't know me. You just know me from the outside. You can't see what's inside my head. 'Cause inside my head, I'm going completely crazy, and I'm losing control. All those things are things you can't describe as easy as you may think. And I want you to know what it's like to struggle so much that life doesn't feel like life anymore.

- A story about living with several mental disorders. A story about my life. A story about me. The girl with eating problems, depressions, but mostly: borderline. -All Rights Reserved

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