My unpredictable existence

My life has always been unpredictable. I've never stood out besides my height and "pretty" face, as my mother says. I've kept quiet and don't take interest in men, for this reason is unknown. I don't desire a man's touch. I don't look at men and feel a sexual tension. I'm not shy, or insecure; just not happy with myself.

Over the years I have acquired many thoughts about the person I want to become in the future. Being at a young age of 18, I've always wanted to be loved like someone in a love story. I wanted to believe in that love was real. Maybe I knew that love was real, but the fact of someone loving me didn't always convince me that indeed, love was factual.

I also always knew in the back of my head that we, as humans, weren't always alone on earth. I used to call myself insane for thinking this, but today at this moment, I'm not insane. And this is my story on how I discovered my sanity.