SHE [ girlxgirl ]

Loving someone you can't have really sucks. Like really really. I love her, but I hate her for the pain she has caused me. I know we can't be together, but my heart won this battle against my head for this round.

Her soft, ivory skin. Her deep brown eyes that hold so much knowledge and wisdom. Whenever I'm with her I feel so alone but so alive. I love her, but it's slowly killing me. Sweet, lemongrass-scented killing.

I've had the same dream every night for ages now. She's falling and I'm falling. She screams and it pulls at my heart, shattering it into millions of tiny pieces. I feel helpless and empty. Like swimming in honey. I can't help her, and it takes away a little piece of my sanity every night. I wake up sweating and ice cold. Numb. I'm in so deep, I'm worried I won't ever get out again.