40 Days before you killed me
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Ongoing8m
Last published Fri, Apr 29, 2016
I try.... I try so hard to be happy, to let things go and not take them the wrong way. But what if im taking them the way you mean for me too ? What if the voices inside my head are right and this world doesn't realize it ? What am I to do when I'm either stuck in the dark abyss called my mind or travel to the unknown and face the possibility of being stuck in that dark abyss for eternity? Maybe at least there I would be at peace. Can I risk it though?...
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