A Dreamer's Failures (What I Can't Have) - ValeHA1511 - Wattpad

A Dreamer's Failures (What I Can't Have)

SpeciallyOrdinary

Leituras 963
Votos 140
Capítulos 22
Tempo 1h 37m

Leituras 963
Votos 140
Capítulos 22
Tempo 1h 37m

SpeciallyOrdinary

bullying depression life romance wattys2016

I never stopped being a dreamer.
  
  From the moment I dreamed about getting my perfect prince, to the moment that I grew up and thought that I could find &quot;the one&quot; and be successful in life.
  
  All of that changed... Now I'm here, without any hopes of a future with someone because of how I am and how I fail trying to pretend I'm someone else that I'll never be.
  
  I don't care about being famous or anything like that. I mean those desires most people have as a vital figment in their fantasies, let them try to achieve it if they really want it.
  
  All I'm asking for is for a better life, a normal life. I have to accept that there are things that I can't have, things that are urgently missing for me. My main thoughts are:
  
  Should I give up?
  
  Maybe there is an opportunity that could make my life a bit perfect for once...
  
  With this thoughts and experiences I wrote a journal to record everything that happens to remember those good or bad times depending on what will happen to me later on. The question for you is:
  
  Will you read this and enter my life and thoughts?Todos os Direitos Reservados

bullying depression life romance wattys2016

22 capítulos

Inscreva-se para adicionar A Dreamer's Failures (What I Can't Have) à sua biblioteca e receber atualizações

or

Diretrizes de Conteúdo

Talvez você também goste

Fml, de hannah101gal

"Are you ok?" "What's wrong?" "Are you sad?" "Everything will be okay". Honestly, I'm not okay, what's wrong? Everything! And why am I sad? Because I can't handle anything anymore and NOTHING will be okay. I don't know why I always need to lie to everyone about me, it's not like they could understand anyways. Who's been by my side? Well people obviously, but none of them can know what I think! How I feel! How could they anyways, it's not like my life is a book that people can just read and understand... Who am I? An emotional girl who is exaggerating right now? Haha! NO. I'm actually Anne, and I'm fourteen. I guess that I'm a social teen, always looking happy and approchable. Well not lately...But you'll get to that part at some point. I'm an "average teen" like some people say. Well I honestly don't know. I'm always tired, depressed stressed, but some say that that's normal. Of course because my life isn't complicated at all...Maybe I imagine things? All these years and I've always kept things inside, of course I have friends, but they can't hear my thoughts and know everything in my pathetic life. So that's why I've decided "Well why not write in a diary? Maybe it will help? Or something" I have no idea if it actually helps, but it might...At least it's something I can open up to. To talk about my suicidal thoughts, my depression, my self-harm issues and my eating disorder... On that note.... Bye.... Fml :) Anne

My best friend's baby (completed), de Yellow1017

What the hell? How can she be pregnant and I didn't notice? When was she going to tell me? How does he not even remember the night? I sure as hell wouldn't want to forget a night like that with her. Was it a jerk at the party we went to weeks ago? I had to find out. I flipped back some pages to the date of the party. Dear diary, You are not going to believe this...but I did it with Justin. We were both drunk...well him more than me I only had two drinks. Some feeling just came over me and I gave in. I left before he woke up and made it look like I wasn't there and went to my room. I think he had too much to drink to remember...but I don't remember using any protection. Let's just hope nothing happens. Nicole I'm the father? Come to think of it that night is fuzzy...and I do remember waking up with no clothes on. Shit how could I forget the best night of my life...but wait I got her pregnant? My best friend is carrying my child.

Love Maybe?, de bossedupsis

I listen in quietly as I tiptoed around the corner to see what my boyfriend was talking about. If he's cheating I'm going to beat his ass and her ass . I started to listen... "Alexis is going to be over happy !" he said with joy in his voice Um what do he mean ? What is he planning ? He knows I don't like suprises ...ugh. "Yes , yes she is once this suprise party is done " Juliet said Oh gosh! what have I done listening in on his convos but now I heard to much ! I tried to back away but they saw me . Shit , just goddamn shit "Babe ? , did you hear something we said ?" he asked with seriousness in his greenish hazel eyes "Um ! n-nothing duhh I kinda tripped and such " I stuttered along with a nervous laugh "Bestfriend be for real did you hear anything ?" Juliet asked " I told you nothing , I heard nothing" I covered up with my bright smile and walked away I walked to the bathroom and let out a nervous laugh again . I can't believe what I just heard ...their planning something for me? this is the first time someone every thought about me . my cheeks start to get wet . Shit I'm crying "Alexis , are you okay ? " Juliet asked with sincere in her voice " Its just that I notice that.." I trailed off "Nobody gives a fuck about me at all" I wiped away tears as I said it "That's not true don't lie to yourself , we care " she embraced me I stood there hugging her and crying , venting to my bestie that I love so much . she was always there no matter what and I'm glad she was here ~~ Please read I um this is my first book xD so enjoy

The Wish of a Broken Heart, de LovelyLotus84

They say, "Be careful what you wish for." They say, "There's truth to every story." They say, "Karma's a B***h." A heart's wish is a powerful thing. But magic doesn't exist. Or so I thought. Now, a troll has found me. ************* Cara I can't... It hurts... Why? Am I not good enough? Not pretty enough? What did I do to be betrayed like this? I feel numb except for the gaping hole in my chest. The darkness starts creeping in. I wish... Heavens how I wish... Friday June 13th I don't know when, how, or why I ended up where I am, but here I am. As insane as it sounds, I am no longer on earth. I think. Maybe I'm dead. Or maybe I'm in a coma! One where I can feel a hell of a lot of pain and new scents are being created? Maybe, just maybe, I should have listened to Grandmother's crazy stories of magic in our blood and being careful what we wish for. They don't sound so crazy anymore. All I know is I'm on the ground, can't move, staring up at an impossibly blue sky through broken branches of trees I've never seen before. That's saying a lot. Botany is my favorite hobby. I think I have internal bleeding from falling through the three-story tall trees like a pinball. My only regrets are knowing my Mum will be in a panic, won't quit searching, and my sweet American Pit Bull Terrier, Nimuë, fell through with me. ************* Tavirian Our laws are clear. If we find any creature wounded past the point of healing, we kill them. It's a mercy. We've gotten a reputation for being ruthless and cannibalistic because of it. Hundreds of years ago, perhaps, but not anymore. I'm still a monster. I'm on my ancestral pilgrimage to present the spirits with my potential brides. I'm not thrilled with my options. My mate is out there, but the elders are pushing me to take one of our Tribe. When we come across a nearly dead, tiny human and her creature, I can't kill them. Especially now. I can use the pilgrimage to save them for now, but I'll need help.

Chubby ✔️, de ice_olatedwriter

A girl who has been called chubby her whole life. By everyone. She wants to be a model; thinking it might make her pretty and people would stop calling her names and laughing at her for thinking she had a career in modeling. So she applies to a modeling school. The best in town. Her dream is to be a model. Yet, she is brutally rejected when she applies which completely shatters her heart. Her parents never supported her. So after she's rejected, instead of consoling her; they criticize her even more. She never really had friends to begin with; and now that the news of being rejected from the modeling school spread, no one would even look at her in a friendly way. She was mocked. She was bullied. The words kept changing. From chubby to fat. From stupid to worthless With the excessive amount of bullying, she fell into depression. Hard. She stopped eating. Maybe it'll make the horrible words go away?

My Prison Called Life (Bio 1) , de Dani_Wolf_IceQueen

This is a bio about me and what I went through as a child. You see I was abused not just by both parents but my whole family. I know you guys probably heard about all of this before but I want to write this. It will help me forget about my past and let me move on. I was suicidal and I wanted to give up but I didn't. So this is a story of what happened before Ways To Stop Bullying and after it. Journey with me when you see the hell I went through and how I made it out to be the person I am today. To be honest this is something that scares me more than anything in the world by writing this. But I want to and need to. To be warned it will get ugly and it might not look that bad to most people who probably had it worse than me. But this isn't why I'm writing this to get sympathy I'm writing this so I can finally move on and say. I done this I lived through it. I doubt anyone would read this and if they do I doubt many will but I don't care I'm writing this for me and if it helps others? I'm glad so I don't know what else to say so this is all.

Finding Purpose (+18) ✔️, de ZaynismRules

***this book contains suicidal thoughts and tendencies, may not be appropriate for younger audiences*** In which she looks for the purpose of life. Lily Carter's parents died in a car crash leaving her and Laura, girl was depressed long before her parents passed away and with all the problems turning up now, Lily felt more miserable - if that's even possible. With her journey to look for life's purpose and grab the small pinch of HOPE - which is ironically her second name -, will she finally snap at the pressure and finally end it all? or will a small light lit her darkened world of grief and loneliness? * "So you know. The little goth girl who gets bullied is indeed a mess. There's this mess in her head that eats her alive everyday isn't it? What to do now Kaden? Tell the whole neighborhood and recieve an award for taking out a crazy in this world?" I spit like vomit. His eyes warmed up as I finished, "Lily. It isn't like that" "What is it then? People stopped caring... they gave up, why aren't you?" I fought my tears. "Because I feel the need to care. Did Leigh hurt you? Did she hit you?" he finally noticed the unusual redness of my cheek. I don't like the way he told me he needed to care for me. I felt like an obligation, a responsibility that he is carrying and carrying leads to getting tired and when people gets tired, they give up. I don't want them to give up on me. But they will, so it's good not to make them care for me in the first place. "I never needed anyone. I stopped needing anyone before, why start now?" I uttered the words again. Why? There is nothing to fight for. No mama. No papa. No sister to love me. No one. So why would I waste my life and the time of others to fix what is already broken - and someone who doesn't want to be fixed? If I may add. Maybe I gave up. No, scratch that. I gave up a long time ago - when my parents died, my hope and purpose went away with them.

Pinwheels and Dandelions, de cjacks1124

I was kicked around like trash on the streets. I was the book that nobody could understand or read, but without a care, they were quick to rip out the pages. I screamed for attention, but time after time, I was ignored. Nobody noticed me, so I made myself at home in my own shadow. They say there's light at the end of the tunnel -- I searched and searched for it, but it could never be found. Therefore, I lost hope as I hid in the shade and endured what seemed like everlasting pain. The little hope I did have was snatched from my arms. My baby brother was my life, and they took my glimpse of hope away. Home. Is that a word? Maybe for a family of some kind, but for me, I never had a place to call home. I moved from place to place. Unstable foster care, fighting for my life in group homes, barely surviving in detention centers, and running away from being mistreated as I made many benches my temporary home. The only thing that I was familiar with was a black plastic bag containing my dirty rags. I am too young to know what it feels like to survive. These are the cards life has dealt me and I am not meant to win; however, I easily lose without trying. It is hard for me to find peace. I am paying for my mother's reckless actions. I am trapped in a world where the sun has died because I am unable to feel love. I am unable to dream. Sorrow is my aura, and the sadness hugs me. My eyes are closed shut by the barbed wire fence from my eyelashes as they prohibit tears from falling. I am damaged. When will the morning come? Did the sun put up a fight last night, like I do every single day? If I can survive the day, I know the sun isn't dead. One day, I will awake to a glorious sunrise. Until then, I hope my brother keeps blowing his pinwheel, and I will keep making wishes with every dandelion I come across. For now, all I know is that everything was taken from me, and the only thing I own is my name.

Lonely Heart, de YukichiAi

Have you ever felt like you are not needed or like this world you where born into sucks? Well you shouldn't because no matter what there will come a time when you find someone who needs you and only you. When that someone appears he is going to change your entire world along with your view of it. He will break into your thick barrier and bring you out of it and then you will finally see just how beautiful this world actually is. ---------------------------------------------- P.S. Hi everyone, I'm YukichiAi :P, this is my first story, I don't know if it's any good but I do hope you enjoy it. (I'll apologize beforehand if the parts are too short)

All you need Is love but sometimes love alone isn't enough , de RENOl_ENOLA

I really don't remember the last time I was happy even my childhood memories I honestly don't remember having a bubbly childhood like any other kids ,my life has always been miserable and honestly learned how to adapt to that. you honestly smile over something stupid , laugh over a cracked joke for a few minutes and there's that thing that triggers that you just had enough and you should stop and your mood just goes down and there's nothing to do about it. It's like the inner you always wakes up fucked up more than you are fucked up and tells you that you just sad and you gonna stay that way until you take out the anger on something or someone but you know what something always has to be the blade, permanent scars on how bad it was ,a daily reminder on how life is and how sadness over comes you at times actually not at times but everytime and on the someone part , you hurt people that honestly try to reach out to you and show you how much they care about you but you just had it with everyone and everything and you want no one caring about your feelings and giving a fuck about you because you can't reciprocate the feelings. You can't find yourself caring about anyone else but you but still can't care about yourself enough to feel safe or protected , he was the only one that made me feel alive and I lost him but what hurts more is losing someone and only realizing later what they meant to you.

Talvez você também goste

Slide 1 of 10

My best friend's baby (completed) cover

Love Maybe? cover

The Wish of a Broken Heart cover

Chubby ✔️ cover

My Prison Called Life (Bio 1) cover

Finding Purpose (+18) ✔️ cover

Pinwheels and Dandelions cover

Lonely Heart cover

All you need Is love but sometimes love alone isn't enough cover

Fml

"Are you ok?" "What's wrong?" "Are you sad?" "Everything will be okay". Honestly, I'm not okay, what's wrong? Everything! And why am I sad? Because I can't handle anything anymore and NOTHING will be okay. I don't know why I always need to lie to everyone about me, it's not like they could understand anyways. Who's been by my side? Well people obviously, but none of them can know what I think! How I feel! How could they anyways, it's not like my life is a book that people can just read and understand... Who am I? An emotional girl who is exaggerating right now? Haha! NO. I'm actually Anne, and I'm fourteen. I guess that I'm a social teen, always looking happy and approchable. Well not lately...But you'll get to that part at some point. I'm an "average teen" like some people say. Well I honestly don't know. I'm always tired, depressed stressed, but some say that that's normal. Of course because my life isn't complicated at all...Maybe I imagine things? All these years and I've always kept things inside, of course I have friends, but they can't hear my thoughts and know everything in my pathetic life. So that's why I've decided "Well why not write in a diary? Maybe it will help? Or something" I have no idea if it actually helps, but it might...At least it's something I can open up to. To talk about my suicidal thoughts, my depression, my self-harm issues and my eating disorder... On that note.... Bye.... Fml :) Anne