beautiful nightmare

"Did you have once felt being love? "
He just made the question so nice to my ears.

"You mean, if I had a boyfriend? Yes, both ways.
I had a jerk of a boyfriend,
and my caring friend who's a boy."
I explained.

"Then why you're so cold and mean to us? "

"Well, because boys are boys."
I concluded.

"What if I'll tell you I like you? "
He stated flatly.

I smiled. "I have a crush on you.
Period.
End of story.
Don't complicate things, Alex
as already are."

He smiled.
"We'll see who will win?"

I raised my eyebrows.
Oh, how I so hate games.
Coz, girls at the end
whether we like it or not
we still get hurt.
Either we win or lose.

"Oh, bet?"
My only words.

But most of us girls know
heartbreak is not the mean reason,
why we are afraid to fall again.
Deep down there
the reason beneath is hidden.
Either by our own lessons
or someone's reason.

And setting standards
or rules.