Me and my complete opposite

My name is Joanne, I'm 16 years old and is the popular girl at school. I have friends, and also enemies that can not be trusted. I have a boyfriend, who is a cunt who abuses me....whenever he wants. My dad left us because well....eh....don't want to talk about him, anyways I become so irreverent and disrespectful in Society. Mum cuts herself because she is depressed that her only love has left her. Then I began more and more depressed, sleeping with my teachers thinking if my pain would make it go away. But I was wrong. The pain is still there, but I just made it more painful. People at school started calling me names like whore, slut and go kill yourself, and then my sister started calling me names. So I thought, if they are calling me those names than I'll become like one. Went to school with really short skirt, a see through t-shirt that shows my breast, my messy hair and loads of make up. Everyone laughed, some threw stuff at me and some even attempt to kill me. I went home, changed into my comfy clothes and walked outside. Where it was dark, cold night where you almost don't know where your heading. I ended up at a bridge, it was so high that you can almost touch the sky. So I climb up, balancing myself as I stared up at the sky. I open my lips, and raise my voice and spoke to the stars as if they were listening to me.

So tell me.....am I really that bad?

Note: sorry there will be errors throughout this book