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A story of me. My need for a certain something to keep me sane and happy. Without it I could feel myself either away, but with it I did too. With it, I felt brilliant and alive. I felt as if I could do anything. Deep down I wanted to break out from it's artificial curse, but I couldn't. Did I?All Rights Reserved

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