Useless and Unwanted ..

Dear Diary,

Every morning I wake up wishing I could be some where else. Why do I have to get put through this? I'm tired of getting beaten and abused by my god awful mother and father. The sound of the belt slamming down on my bare skin... the feeling of being breathless as I get choked to a point where I almost knock out... the brutal raping I have to go through by my father. I feel violated. I feel useless. I feel unwanted. I feel like I am nothing to anyone.
Am I worthless?
am I not wanted?
Am I needed?
Do I deserve this?
Is there a reason to even be on this earth?

sincerely,
unwanted, useless girl :(