The grey clouds

I felt as if my chest was going numb. I looked down to only be greeted by a huge gash going from my upper lift shoulder to my right hip. I was still unclear of the events that occurred the night before. I assumed it had something to do with my father. He had quite the drinking problem. My mother tried to get him some help, and she almost got him to quit, But then the accident happened. I don't remember it quite that well but all i know is that my mother died and I was the reason. My father never let me forget that, no matter how drunk or drugged up he was.