Melancholia: My Story
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MatureComplete Mon, May 2, 201615m
The moment you genuinely wish death upon yourself is the moment you have failed as a human being. Humans are built to survive, and yet I want the exact opposite of that. People think that when somebody craves the feeling of pain and physically or emotionally harms themselves is when they have hit rock bottom, but I don't do that (anymore) and this is the worst I've ever been.
My name is Jodie, I'm 19 years old and this is a brief account of my struggles with mental health, self-harm and relationships.
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