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I am Astrid Milhoff and I am loveless. 

My parents never loved me. 

In fact, my mom left when I was only 5 years old. 

Then it was just me and my dad. 

My dad also left me. 

I was replaced by drugs and alcohol. 

They were also replaced by the same things.

I also don't have any friends.

Well besides the girl I get high with.

But that's different.

I have no friends to comfort me when I am sad or feeling down.

I have no one. 

It's just me, myself, and I. 

Solo ride until I die cause I got me for life.All Rights Reserved

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