Struggle// Kim Namjoon
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God, is this really over? Is this really the end?
I have lived a life that I am grateful for. I could not ask for more. It was saturated of suprisings, love. Laughter but tears, happiness but sadness. I realized it late but my life was more than perfect. I realize this now that I can feel the end appoarches.
Is this really going to be the end of me?
I was dreaming about this moment. oh God! I was really waiting the moment when death would knock my door and inticate his hand for me to reach it and join him.
But now I am regreting those thoughts as my whole life is flashing before my eyes.
I cannot help myself but wonder again. Is this the end?
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Warning:
It contains a lot of self-harm and depression.
And unedited so forgive my grammar and vocab mistakes.
Started: June 2016
Finished:--
Credits for the cover: @wourdsinus
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