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Struggle// Kim Namjoon

ItsJustMeEfsevi

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Reads 40,869
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Parts 23
Time 3h 25m

ItsJustMeEfsevi

bangtan bts depression dreams fanfiction friendship hoseok jimin jin jungkook kpop love namjoon rapmonster romamce seokjin suicidal taehyung yoongin

God, is this really over? Is this really the end?

I have lived a life that I am grateful for. I could not ask for more. It was saturated of suprisings, love. Laughter but tears, happiness but sadness. I realized it late but my life was more than perfect. I realize this now that I can feel the end appoarches.

Is this really going to be the end of me?

I was dreaming about this moment. oh God! I was really waiting the moment when death would knock my door and inticate his hand for me to reach it and join him.

But now I am regreting those thoughts as my whole life is flashing before my eyes.

I cannot help myself but wonder again. Is this the end?
  
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  Warning:
   It contains a lot of self-harm and depression. 
  And unedited so forgive my grammar and vocab mistakes.

Started: June 2016
Finished:--
  
  
  Credits for the cover: @wourdsinusAll Rights Reserved

bangtan bts depression dreams fanfiction friendship hoseok jimin jin jungkook kpop love namjoon rapmonster romamce seokjin suicidal taehyung yoongin

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"... You're a monster," I said, my voice breaking as I sobbed... "...That I am Jimin, and I'm gonna make this quick..." he held on to my jaw tightly before speaking again... "...I didn't know you liked friends..." "...I also didn't know you liked guys... I guess they are a lot of things we don't know about each other..." "...don't you regret it..." "...no... I would do it again and again if I have to... I don't regret it. I won't regret... never..." "...stop Seokjin, you're going to kill him..." "...he killed my sister, he deserves to die..." In which Jimin faced two years long bullying from his band members without actually knowing the reason behind it. With all the twists and turns, the truth finally came to light, names were cleared, and apologies were given, but what about the ....guilt.... fear... and the memories.... The fear is still there, ready to surface whenever triggered, the memories still hunting... How long will it take to get rid of it entirely? Warning ⚠️ Mention of rape: not too detailed Bullying Degradation: not too explicit Mention of abuse: detailed None of this relates to the real world, the context of this story is just for content sake. Thanks 😊 SpadeZ

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Him and I ✓ by starzett

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