What Life Means To Me
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Last published Tue, May 24, 2016
Kathie Blake a.k.a Kath is a student, daughter, friend who faces hard problems her whole life. She thought a lot of times "I want to die already...right now...because... I CAN'T TAKE THIS PAIN ANYMORE!!!" But she wondered...what kept her living even though she attempted dying countless times because of her hard sorrowful life. What kept her moving all along? What kept her living? What stopped her from doing those attempts all this time? Why didn't she just continued her suicidal plans? What does that life mean to her...and why she continued living it? What is the main reason of it all? Could someone save her from her sorrowful life? Or could someone shatter and ruin her life to pieces?
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