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I Never Knew It Would Be Like This; a collection of poems
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Ongoing, First published May 14, 2012
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Everyday life stories... Nothing to cry about, just my feelings. And some more things that I often wonder about. Do you really know who I am? Any thing that comes to my mind I try to post up here... Even if this isn't for you, maybe you can just keep reading to learn about me.
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Running from the gang

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