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Within the Sins

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UPDATE: 1/14/24 - Per reader request, I will turn this from a short story into a novella. It will be taken down soon and re-published!

Despite years passing since Hasan moved his children from Québec to Amman, twenty-four-year-old Yazid still struggles to see passed his father's decision to leave his mother. As the firstborn, he attempts to take on more responsibility for his sisters, but one of them perpetually meets him headstrong.

If there are three words Hasan would use to describe his son, they would be reckless, disagreeable, and unpredictable. For this reason, he entrusts his eldest daughter Aseel to care for the family, investing in her more than investing in Yazid.

With his mother thousands of miles away, and his father unapproachable, the young man finds solace in injecting himself with needles of "amnesia" as he puts it, unaware that, with every memory he washes away, he grows in sin. 

On one lonely night, Yazid comes in contact with slithering dancers, swaying from side to side, whispering in his ear that there is only one true way to cleanse himself of his sins. 

Genre: General Fiction
Themes: Suicide, substance abuse, anxietyAll Rights Reserved

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Abigail

(In editing) She's depressed. She's anorexic. She's suicidal. She's insecure. Abigail has grown up with her three brothers and James, never meeting her parents, who abandoned her at birth. Her brothers were left to take care of her and keep a roof over their heads. Everyday they struggle to take care of Abigail, while working to keep them in their home. Life for them is hard. Life for Abigail is even harder. She has a dark mind and not by choice. Somewhere along the way she's developed these feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Everyday is a struggle for her and just getting out of bed is a success. She meets Zach, a bad boy with a bad reputation. He starts off as a tutor, just to help her out, out of pity. But eventually feelings get involved and Abigail finds herself liking a boy for the first time in her life. Things get serious and she somehow learns about his drug dealing business. Everything gets hectic and Abigail doesn't know what to do with her life anymore. Or if she even wants to live.