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BlackpaintedSoul

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Reads 1,139
Votes 101
Parts 18
Time 2h 38m

BlackpaintedSoul

amazingphil danhowell danisnotonfire danp fanfiction love nostalgia phandom phanfic phanfiction phillester romance secondworldwar

It is strange how we hold on to the pieces of the past while we wait for our futures.

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Britain, World War II

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"Where are you, Phil?
Will I ever see you again?"

Daniel James Howell is a lost child and the only one giving him hope and safety in his childhood is his best friend Philip. One day, it all comes crashing down, but Phil isn't there anymore and Dan loses himself in all the memories.

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