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thenightlockfox

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Reads 14,686
Votes 984
Parts 12
Time 1h 20m

thenightlockfox

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{{ part two of psychedelia }}

It's been two years since Dan moved out of the apartment to go to a rehabilitation centre, and in that space of time he's heard nothing from Phil. Not even a "hello."

Dan's scared that Phil's moved on and forgotten about him, and since they both stopped vlogging Dan doesn't know what's happening in Phil's life. Is he still living in London? Has he moved back to Manchester? Is he even alive?

So now that Dan is finally off his medication and he's completely clean, he should be happy again, right?

Sometimes, the most painful thing is when the person who you share all of your best memories with becomes a slowly fading memory, and you can't do anything except watch and scream as the past disappears, almost like it never existed in the first place.

And it fucking hurts.

WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, MENTIONS OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.All Rights Reserved

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psychedelia | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

Smile, Dan by kittylover573ds

DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

We Don't Believe What's on TV by storytailor

Actions lead to consequences. Even though Dan doesn't know what he'd do without Phil, Dan doesn't exactly love the idea of 'Phan', and when actions and anger pulls them apart, he's about to find out. A girl. A photo. A gang. A past that's determined to return to hurt him. And Dan himself, the man behind the camera who really doesn't shape up to be all he is on the screen. There are so many things we don't see. We don't believe what's on TV. *Title inspired by Twenty One Pilots* *Art by bethziggydraws on instagram/ iamphanlocked.tumblr.com* *Edited by Jenny L.* *Trigger warnings: Alcohol, drug mention, rape mention, depressing thoughts, suicide mention, self harm mention* *OPEN ENDING - Sequel/Part 2 TBA* DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction. The views expressed by the characters do not reflect on those that they have in real life.

Unbroken || Dan Howell x reader by secretlyhomicidal

Moving to London, finally. New people, new home, new life. You can forget all of your problems back in North America, with the help of someone special... _____________ Forewarning: I wrote this story many years ago, so I apologize for all the spelling mistakes, grammar issues and the overall overused plot. My writing has since improved, but I'd rather not edit and correct all these things for the sake of looking back on how much I've grown and changed, writing-wise. Thanks for your understanding!

Never forget me... by killingtimeanddreams

Dan has been missing for 2 years and Phil is slowly going crazy without him. When Dan finally returns home bruised, hurt, and broken they both realise they cant live without each other for long. Back from the kidnapping Dan suffers from depression and is struggling to live with the constant horrifying memories that haunt his life. Phil tries his hardest to help but will it be enough to save them both? trigger warning: contains self-harm and depressing thoughts. DO NOT READ if you are likely to get hurt by these things. I do not promote self harm or anything like this and I really hope that if you do these things talk to people about it. please. Anyways hope you enjoy my first phanfiction. I apologise if its bad but just a heads up if you hate it :) x

A slim chance by noshowsiero

Two anorexia patients Two untold stories Is a slim chance really enough to survive? -------- When Dan Howell is sent to a rehab full of depressed teenage girls, will he ever be able to escape his traumatic past? It's a slim chance... until Phil Lester comes along that is. -------- please be aware that this was written a long time before it was uploaded and my writing style has changed a lot since then. I won't be rewriting this to fix any mistakes so please DONT bother pointing them out thanks and enjoy!

Annoying sunshine // Phan {COMPLETED} by derailedphantrash

CONTAINS SELF HARM AND DEPRESSION Dan: the anti social kid at the back of the class , dressed in black lost in his own world . He has no friends , no family and he liked it that way . He had secrets , ones that he could never share unless psychiatric hospital sound good to you . Phil : the over enthusiastic new kid that's smiling though his pain . The boy that lost everything yet still fakes his smile . He looks like the sun yet feels like the dark sky yet know one will ever know . Phil doesn't have secrets but he has another person within himself , the true Phil , the one that wants to put a bullet in his head and die like the rest of his family seems to do yet this Phil is hidden under a mask of bright clothes and smiles . When Dan and Phil meet at the back of a class right in the very corner dans appearance reminds him of his true self , Phil reminds Dan about the old him the one before he lost hope . Dan hates Phil he's to happy and it sickens Dan . Phil is intrigued by Dan he's to mysterious and Phil loves it . They both have secrets and they both have issues . Will they end up bonding or colliding ?

All My Fault (a Dan and Phil fan fiction) by Saffron123xx

After Phil moved out to be with his new girlfriend Dan has mostly given up on life. No one would ever love him. No one would ever care for him, not the same way Phil did. He can only recall their memories. But they are starting to fade, everything seems foggy in Dan's mind. Nothing is laid out for him. With all hope gone Dan makes some stupid decisions, one where he needs Phil. ***TW: this story contains love, swearing and attempts of suicide****

broken ; phan by iblameherbs

(COMPLETED) It has been at least a year ever since Dan and Phil had ended their friendship and stopped doing youtube. Phil went and moved onto a radio show on bbc radio, But Dan moved in with his parents not knowing what to do with his life, where will their journeys take them? (very fluffy, no smut, triggering things here, mentions of self harm in like 3 chapters, this is an emotional train)

Too Close (Phan) by WellThisIsAwkward49

Phil Lester is a well known youtuber. He hides behind the camera, he acts the way that he wants to but he scared to be himself at school. He's popular and he's not happy like that. Dan is sweet and rarely talks. He is always afraid that somebody will hurt him so he tries to stay away from people and emotions. Dan struggles with depression, selfharm, bullies, anorexia, a dark past, and being fostered by an abusive family. His mom and dad died when he was 13 and he blames himself everyday. His 7 year old sister is the only thing keeping him alive and sane. Phil feels bad for Dan, but he can't show it unless he wants to get hurt to. Little does Phil know, Dan is quickly losing control of his life. Read this book to go on this adventure with Dan and Phil. (Will mostly be written in Dan's POV) WARNINGS: This story will have very triggering content that deals with self harm, depression, self hatred, anorexia, abuse, harsh language, bullying, mentions of rape, bulimia, and anxiety. Please be careful reading my book and I am always here to talk if you need it. Also, Dan is shorter in this book, about 5'9" cause I have a thing with height.

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psychedelia | phan

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.