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nyctophilia | phan

thenightlockfox

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Reads 14,686
Votes 984
Parts 12
Time 1h 20m

thenightlockfox

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{{ part two of psychedelia }}

It's been two years since Dan moved out of the apartment to go to a rehabilitation centre, and in that space of time he's heard nothing from Phil. Not even a "hello."

Dan's scared that Phil's moved on and forgotten about him, and since they both stopped vlogging Dan doesn't know what's happening in Phil's life. Is he still living in London? Has he moved back to Manchester? Is he even alive?

So now that Dan is finally off his medication and he's completely clean, he should be happy again, right?

Sometimes, the most painful thing is when the person who you share all of your best memories with becomes a slowly fading memory, and you can't do anything except watch and scream as the past disappears, almost like it never existed in the first place.

And it fucking hurts.

WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, MENTIONS OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.All Rights Reserved

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Unbroken || Dan Howell x reader by secretlyhomicidal

Moving to London, finally. New people, new home, new life. You can forget all of your problems back in North America, with the help of someone special... _____________ Forewarning: I wrote this story many years ago, so I apologize for all the spelling mistakes, grammar issues and the overall overused plot. My writing has since improved, but I'd rather not edit and correct all these things for the sake of looking back on how much I've grown and changed, writing-wise. Thanks for your understanding!

Touch - Phan by SweetLittlePhangirl

"'I miss you.' 'What do you mean? I'm right here.' He shook his head. 'No, I mean I miss seeing you. I miss your smile. Seeing you smile made me so happy. I'm still so upset that I'll never see it again.' I breathed in, a bit shaky. 'You've just got to remember that if I'm with you, I'm always smiling, okay?' 'I still miss seeing you. If I could have just one opportunity to be able to see again, even just for a moment, I would spend my time just watching you smile. That's all I would want....'" After a horrible accident, Phil loses his sight and goes completely blind. Dan's help has been amazing to get him through it, but Dan can't help falling in love with his best friend - now in daily need of his care and attention. This story is about love and trust, and how two friends - much more than friends - overcome the odds of a disability, and how they realize that no matter how difficult it gets, they will always have each other. (Warnings: none! :D Fluffy, a little dash of angst, looong)

Never forget me... by killingtimeanddreams

Dan has been missing for 2 years and Phil is slowly going crazy without him. When Dan finally returns home bruised, hurt, and broken they both realise they cant live without each other for long. Back from the kidnapping Dan suffers from depression and is struggling to live with the constant horrifying memories that haunt his life. Phil tries his hardest to help but will it be enough to save them both? trigger warning: contains self-harm and depressing thoughts. DO NOT READ if you are likely to get hurt by these things. I do not promote self harm or anything like this and I really hope that if you do these things talk to people about it. please. Anyways hope you enjoy my first phanfiction. I apologise if its bad but just a heads up if you hate it :) x

Dreams (A Phanfic) by wifi_whiskers

Once Phil reveals his secret affection for Dan, they become boyfriends. Though, Dan is crushed when Phil walks out of his life after the "incident". Will the boys make an effort to patch things up? Or will they depart forever? **This is a safe Phanfic, there will be no mentions of suicide, self harm, rape, etc.**

Smile, Dan by kittylover573ds

DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.

$The Missing Lester {phan} by fefetdm__$

Phil goes missing and Dan doesn't know what to do. He feels lost. What happened to Phil?

All My Fault (a Dan and Phil fan fiction) by Saffron123xx

After Phil moved out to be with his new girlfriend Dan has mostly given up on life. No one would ever love him. No one would ever care for him, not the same way Phil did. He can only recall their memories. But they are starting to fade, everything seems foggy in Dan's mind. Nothing is laid out for him. With all hope gone Dan makes some stupid decisions, one where he needs Phil. ***TW: this story contains love, swearing and attempts of suicide****

We Don't Believe What's on TV by storytailor

Actions lead to consequences. Even though Dan doesn't know what he'd do without Phil, Dan doesn't exactly love the idea of 'Phan', and when actions and anger pulls them apart, he's about to find out. A girl. A photo. A gang. A past that's determined to return to hurt him. And Dan himself, the man behind the camera who really doesn't shape up to be all he is on the screen. There are so many things we don't see. We don't believe what's on TV. *Title inspired by Twenty One Pilots* *Art by bethziggydraws on instagram/ iamphanlocked.tumblr.com* *Edited by Jenny L.* *Trigger warnings: Alcohol, drug mention, rape mention, depressing thoughts, suicide mention, self harm mention* *OPEN ENDING - Sequel/Part 2 TBA* DISCLAIMER: This is a work of fiction. The views expressed by the characters do not reflect on those that they have in real life.

deranged | phan by phanlusions

completed~~ Dan Howell is admitted into the Manchester Eye Mental Hospital after his attempted suicide. He gets roomed with a boy named Phil Lester, but he doesn't talk much. Not at all actually. Dan decides to make it his personal mission to make Phil talk, but focusing on someone all the time can make you lose yourself. ------------------------------------------ mentions of self harm, suicide, multiple mental illnesses, etc ------------------------------------------ deranged (a.) mad; insane

psychedelia | phan by thenightlockfox

Dan has given up on ever being happy. Life has lost its meaning, and everything he seems to do causes some form of destruction, and Dan is so tired of destroying the things he used to love. He's lost so much, and he's scared of losing Phil, the only thing he can bring himself to care about. But Dan can't see past his own depression that Phil is struggling with bulimia, and that he's equally good at hiding his dark thoughts as Dan. And as Dan walks through the streets alone at night getting high to escape from the hell he's trapped himself in, will he be able to see that maybe the happiness he craves so desperately is not on the streets in the form of white pills, but inside his own apartment in the form of Phil Lester? Or will it be too late... WARNING: THIS STORY CONTAINS STRONG LANGUAGE, SEXUAL SITUATIONS, USE OF DRUGS, VIOLENCE, HIGH LEVELS OF ANGST, BULIMIA, AND THEMES OF SUICIDE. IT IS NOT SUITABLE FOR YOUNGER READERS.

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Unbroken || Dan Howell x reader

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