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Ongoing9m
Last published Mon, Aug 8, 2016
5/14/16
'Loving him was like staring at the sun. Watching it for too long will eventually hurt me, but something deep inside me won't let me stop.
Loving him was like chasing a shooting star. He was out of reach but that doesn't stop me from running.
Loving him was like wanting to fly. Everybody does.
Loving him was like walking on egg shells. Even if you're careful, you will get hurt.
Loving him was like admiring the night sky. Only a few got to actually get to be up there with the stars, and I will never be one of them.
Loving him was like thinking you are safe walking on glass. You're not.
Loving him was like explaining to somebody you are from the future. Because they won't believe you.
Loving him was like crying over spilled milk. You feel hurt but are told it is foolish.
Loving him was impossible. Yet I still did.'
A sigh escapes my lips as I set my beat up journal on my nightstand. My mind racing with the words he spoke. I laid back into bed and attempted to sleep.
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*Caution* SEXUAL CONTENT "So what do you need help with?" Harry asks. "I was lying I don't have homework just leave now." I demand. "No. And if you don't have homework.. Why don't I help you turn that groan of yours into a moan." He says and then comes close and whispers into my ear, "But remember you got to keep it down.. You parents will hear." "You are so rude." I say stepping away from him. "Oh am I?" He asks. "Yes you are. Leave my room. I don't feel comfortable with you in here." I tell him. He steps closer and closer to me as I step back. I reach the wall and look him dead in the eyes. "Well.. Babe.. You can't make me leave." He says. "Don't call me babe." I say. "Sorry babe." He smirks. I just give him the death glare. He leans in and I immediately know what he is doing. "Get away from me!" I say putting my hand on his lips pushing his head away from me. He chuckles, "Now now babe." "Don't now now babe me." I sass him. "Being sassy are we?" He asks. "Yes. I am." I say. "Well.. I suppose we will continue this later.. I would rather make you wet when your not sassing me." He says smirking. "Your not making me wet!" I say to him. "Well babe.. When I kiss you so rough and nibble on your sweet spot to make you moan my name. And when I feel you up and massage your boobs.. I guarantee you'll be wet. And after my first thrust of me going into you.. You will orgasm. If not I will go harder and rougher till you scream my name and have the biggest orgasm you'll ever experience." He whispers into my ear. That sent shivers right down my body. Ok maybe I'm a little wet now.
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