blue. *** A sequel to "C R A Z Y"
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Ongoing5m
Last published Sat, May 21, 2016
**WARNING**: This story deals with and describes things such as self-harm, suicide, mental illnesses, and mental institutions. Please read at your own discretion.
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"I just want her to be happy.
I don't know what's happening and I don't know what to do.
I can't help but feel like she doesn't love me anymore.
I didn't raise her right.
The guilt hurts, but I can't let her know. Maybe I have time to fix it?"
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This is a sequel (see: cover) to another book I've written. Every chapter will correlate (meaning if you read the first chapter there then read the first chapter here, they are the same events from different POVs, yo.
It's from the perspective of a confused, guilt-ridden mother who has high hopes for her mother's recovery.
Enjoy ^_^
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I look down at my hands and start crying again, "I-i'm sorry, Jayden." He pulls me onto his lap and hugs me, I put my shaking hand on his cheek, "Jayden... I'm sorry I couldn't keep him from finding out. He said next time it's gonna be me or you... he told me I can't see you anymore." I say into his neck. He pulls away from the hug and wraps his arms around my waist, "then there won't be a next time." "W-w-what do you mean?" I ask with more tears falling down my face. "I mean, there won't be a next time. We're running away." . . . Eighteen year old twins Vivian and Rosey, have been abused their entire life. Never loved, cared for, and always left to try to stay alive alone. But when Jayden walks in, everything changes. Vivian doesn't understand the love she feels and believes that Jayden deserves more than what she has to give him. And with every aching moment she spends trying to figure out when he's going to turn against her and become just like her parents, comes more pain. Two years after she runs away, she's left with only her lover and something she never thought she'd have the chance to love and hold. With the fear of Jayden leaving and her father finding her to finish her off, she stays alert to try to keep her family and herself safe from harm. But what if he finds them and takes all that she has left?
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