See-through // Phan (on hold)
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❝I don't live the easy life. You don't know what it's like to have to hide this from everyone. I haven't had a friend in eighteen years. I don't know how to take care of you. I don't know how to comfort you. Hell, I can't even comfort myself. So I'm sorry if I'm terrible at this friendship thing, but . . . but this is all so new to me, and I'm sorry. I'm sorry Phil.❞
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Dan Howell is a broken, lonely and depressed mess that hides his feelings with a sarcastic mask. Dan is no ordinary seventeen - year - old kid, though. He can turn invisible whenever he wants. He's never had a friend and has never even wanted one, not knowing how to deal with one and not wanting to hurt them or be hurt BY them. Dan certainly isn't a "bad boy" but he does occasionally skip class and isolate himself from others.
Phil Lester is a curious boy who's new to the school and knows nothing about Dan Howell. He's warned to stay away because of Dan's "disorder". But when Phil runs into Dan one day and sees what his peer can do, Phil only wants to find out more to Dan's story.
Behind Dan's eyes is a grief-filled, angry-at-the-world, sad ocean of betrayal and hurt. And Phil wants to know why he's like his, and won't stop until he does.
Dangers threaten to split their relationship apart, secrets are exposed between the two, and they begin to wonder if their friendship is even worth it anymore.
✦ TRIGGER WARNING! ✦
Started: 5/20/16
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